I've always wondered why things always have to fluctuate such as fashion, philosophies, or different relationships. Recently, I've learned about a way of thinking where they say everything that happens now or in the future is already predetermined, but I don't like that idea, it makes me feel like I don't have control over my own life. For fashion, some of my friend at swimming wear this and people at school wear that and sometime they contradict each other and so I get confused when people talk about things like that. Also there have been many times when I asked myself, should I have said that, done that, befriended them? Sometimes I am not always sure about all the different relationships people have with each other and I will make mistakes because of that.